I've been reflecting a lot on how differently things have turned out for me than I originally thought. Almost everything has turned out differently than I had planned, but it's all for the better.

In High School I had visions of going to nursing school so that I could become an nurse and go the depths of Africa or some foreign country and help them. I'm been to Africa, but I never went to nursing school... I changed my major. I always thought that I had failied and just chickened out. But God had a different plan for me. I would have never in a million years thought that I would be working in Denver at The Denver Rescue as what would be the equivalent of an Administrative Assistant.

I'm so much less career minded than I ever thought I'd be. My focus was always on how well I did in school and what I was planning on doing with my life. I had so many friends and family memebrs tell me over and over again that I should be missionary, since I have a heart for the lost. I always, always, thought that I would be a missionary because this was impressed upon me at an early age. I sort of wanted to. I was waiting to act on it unitl I got a "call" from God. That call never came, and I admit, when I finally discovered that wasn't His chosen path for me, I was a bit relieved.

I've still been able to serve though. I was able to go to South Africa, and it changed my life. I will never forget my time there. But my desire to go back isn't there. Yes, I would LOVE to see all those people again and talk to little Paulina again now that she's growing up, and see their faces. But I don't have a pull or a nudge to ever do it again. Maybe God sent me on that trip to get the bug out of my system.

I am happier now that I ever thought I would be. I had given up on meeting someone, but I met someone. An amazing man who loves the Lord with all his heart and his main goal in life is to serve Him. He loves me so much and show me in a daily basis how much he loves me. I love him more than I thought it was possile to love another human being.

Yes my life has turned out differently that I ever expected. If when I was in high school and someone had told me this is how things would turn out, I may have been disapointed. But now that I'm here, I can't believe how happy I am and sometimes, I even feel like it's too good to be true and I'm going to wake up from this wonderful dream.